An Intense Relationship

In February 2019, I was sitting in a first year computer science lab when a beautiful woman, who I had never seen in the lab before, asked the person sitting to the left of me if he'd like to be partners for an upcoming assignment. He said that he already had a partner, but, since he knew me, and knew that I most likely didn't have a partner, told her to talk to me. She then asked me to be partners, which I of course immediately agreed to. We talked for a short time before the class ended, but never exchanged contact details.

I spent the week leading up to our following lab in a state of excitedness nervousness. I was looking forward to working with her as she was a good conversation partner for the short time that we had talked, and she was very beautiful to look at. She seemed very interesting and different from the average person that I saw in any of my computer science classes. She seemed to have a more creative style than the more robotic-seeming computer science students that I had come across. I sat in the same spot as the week before, and waited for her to enter the lab. Eventually, she entered the lab but didn't sit in the same spot as before. She instead sat two rows further away, and started asking other people if they would like to be her partner, which devastated me. I didn't know why she decided that I wasn't a good partner to have, and why she simply ignored me to talk to other random strangers instead of me. None of the people that she talked to really talked back to her, and then after that lab, I simply never saw her attend the lab again.

It was one of the saddest moments of my life, next to the day that my mom died of breast cancer. After a few weeks of being incredibly depressed, I eventually worked up the courage to try and find her. I couldn't remember exactly what her name was. I thought it could have been a name similar to Irene, Eileen, or Aline. I asked my lab TA but he said he couldn't help me, which further depressed me. I then spent the rest of the semester trying to look for her online. I emailed people through our university's email system who I thought could